| I've really been struggling with the convictions I have vs. other people who don't have them. I don't want to judge people, and then there are those things that just seem so black and white to me, but not for them. It just keeps running, running, running through my head... the reasons, the arguments, the backing for what I know. And yet its not an issue of salvation. Just an issue of looking out for others, not sneaking around, being a good steward, etc. I've tried to become more "loose." Tired doing. Tried merely approving. Tried merely being okay with it. But I just can't. I am 100% uncomfortable with that.
And it all leads to fighting.... fighting, fighting. And I hate it. I feel like I'm trying to be so "superior" or something.... I'm not.
I know that the answer, when I think about it, is to love. Which is, frustrating enough, the reason for the conviction in the first place. TO love people I don't even know, or haven't even met, or who are affected by my actions without my knowledge.
But I HAVE to, need to, want to love those immediately around me. I haven't done that well enough. Man, what's my problem, anyway?
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| I am done with summer school/tutoring, which makes me happy.
I have been fingerprinted for substitute teaching, which makes me nervous.
I have more free time. Sorry for neglecting you.
I want to hang
out with people more before school begins. Just let me know.
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| I think I need something to do.
Is there anything to do in Joplin.... |
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| Who gives you the most money when you're selling them your Ozark books?
QUICK, I'm moving out in 14 days.... and books are HEAVY....
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